Of course everybody wants to be adored
only few people think they dun deserve to be adored
by ur fds, ur family, anybody around u
at the same time
i also try to be fair to everybody
those who adored me before
i’d love to give him/her a double
if everybody thinks like that
who will start doing so?
god? i am not a god follower!
I wanted to be that person?! how wonderful i am!
but the more i gave
the deeper i fall
the rule doesnt seem fair
it’s those who believe “the world is not fair” are in
i always struggle in between
i dun like calculating
but i am the one who calculate all the time
the real me?
the best me?
i am teasing myself
OMM!(not OMG!) January 29, 2009
footsteps January 24, 2009
believe the way i live
believe the way i think
let the way be MY way
let the past be MY past
let the happiness be MY happiness
the sadness be MY sadness
the sweeties be MY swestest
the pain be MY deepest
the love be MY deepest
no denial
not concealing
not to anybody else
but to myself only
regconized
when i happen to walk pass the steps we’ve all gone through,
find out i want to get rid of it
i just have to tell myself
be trustful
I love the way i am
the person i became at this moment
that’s why i can love all of you!!
ENDlessly
wholeheartedly
Research January 19, 2009
Sometimes I like doing research
Sometimes I dun understand why I am doing research
I like creating my own theories upon others’
but I dun like the interaction between scholars and the civil society
which is very ironic to me being one of those who live with the academic world
dun try to predict what and how ppl think!
but I do this a lot as most people do-.-
we are asking the academy to socialize us
I am confused whether it is appropriate to put the world in this way
u know as i said b4 only a small portion of population is gaining this privilege to access to these information.
that is very unfair
I see the world growing in a sense
but the more it grows
it seems the more it fails
the more you want to know everything about the world
the more you will get lost
well
forgive me for wasting ur time reading this rubbish post if it did spare ur precious time-.-
‘one of the stupid theories’ by MING after reading through the theory of Kenneth Waltz
花より男子 January 16, 2009
なんか
どうして今さらこのドラマを見てるわけ？
離れて連絡もあまりしてなくて
何とかしなければならないのですか？
そしてこれはご縁なのですか？このドラマを見させてるって
追いかけていってって言ってるんですか？
私
悔しいのですか？
結局を変えられるの？
いや
変えたいの？
躊躇ってるの？
このままでいいの？
迷ってる？
何で決められない？
疑問ばかりしてて
逃げてる？
すみません
勘弁して
時間 January 15, 2009
要學的
第一件事
一定是時間管理
第二件事
靈活運用時間
第三件事
珍惜時間
第四件事
忘記時間的存在
第五件事
擺脫時間帶來的限制和心理影響
向前
向後
循環
無論時間在你而言是什麼一回事
都不應該被它規限自己
或者當作一個藉口去縱容自己
對時間公平
就是對自己的忠實
かわいいママ January 11, 2009
いきなり「外国に一年間勉強しに行ってこない」ってお母さんに言われてビックリした！
今年不況だから、私は就職できないと心配してたかな
自分の娘に就職できる自信を持ってない可能もあるけれど
やっぱこの残酷な世界をこんなかわいい娘に見せたくないだろう（笑）！就職とはもともと大変だし。
面白いのは「でも外国に行っちゃえば、白人と結婚してしまってやばい」と言いました。
お母さん、ウケルな！
しかも「その行くためのお金は負担できないことはないけど、あそこに旦那といて帰ってこなきゃだめだよ」って真剣に表した。
私も「それは保証できないよ：ｐ」
母の甘さと面白さ、私はさっき気づいた
最もかわいいのはママなんだ！
付出 January 10, 2009
付出了的
不會後悔
付出過後
已經不是在乎自己是理虧還是被人佔了便宜
而是要承受的原來是更加重
這才是為什麼人人都害怕付出的原因吧
所以不會為公司賣命
因為萬一公司出賣了你
不但沒了錢
還要時間去面對帶來的後果
重要的是心靈創傷不是容易復原的
所以做功課都不會全心全意做到自己滿意為止
因為老師一不滿意
就算做到100分都只會是白費心機
意志只會比之前更加消沉
不如聽天由命罷了
保障自己,免受傷害
電視都會教
但是不付出過
怎會知道得到什麼?
日本人喜愛說「適当に」
和中文的意思有一點差異
意思是大約做到達致某個可接受的程度
有多少負面意思
指人不是盡力去做
而中文的意思是正面
認為不需要理會盡力與否
只要”適當”就可
日本人有全力以赴的精神
可能受到他們影響
我都希望可以做到這樣
即使到頭來結果得不到預期
亦可以理直氣壯
我想我是那些會打沒有把握的仗的人
只是心理上需要多一些時間撫平傷口
我不知道未來會有幾多次這些仗我要面對
但是我不希望過去了的仗成為我全力付出的包袱
而是令我一次比一次有效地付出
cyclic philosophy January 10, 2009
there’re always ups and downs throughout your life
like a cycle keeps circulating
there’s always some times ur weaknesses outweigh ur strengths
that u think u cant overcome it at certain instant
u suffer a lot
but if u understand that the cycle is gonna circulate u back to the starting point
there’s nothing u should be afraid of
coz things always restart again if u can withstand that painful moment
and it’s sth u cant avoid once u a born
when it comes to a relationship
that is exactly the same philosophy
shadow exists becoz of light
so no everyday happiness between couples
if u love him/her, u a good enough to withstand the short-term pain until everything restarts at every cycle
but if u dun, since this is a selectively ongoing process, u two may end up with only one or few cycles having come over
the stronger the love, the more cycles u are facing I guess
that is why ppl hesistate to retain a relationship when there’s problem arose
but choose to terminate it
so far I had never be able to come cross more than three cycles
even I appear to understand a lot(so i dun really feel good when ppl ask me about love affairs…i mean i am analytical, but not an expert)
sarcastic
i better find somebody who understands this philosophy more than I am
or ask about that to those I love if there’s a chance
this song dedicate to ppl who want to understand more about this cyclic philosophy^^
時の足音 コブクロ
別季節揺れる 儚一輪花
同温もり風 誰探歩いて
出逢い空流 雲下
重合時計針
回
短針君 長針僕
同時間刻
何度違出逢い
歩く歩幅違 描未来同
大丈夫同場所 始
頑張
負
色種 言葉心水
短春咲く夢 長冬越
心奥集種 光育
歩道陰咲く花 誰
誰輝 君照
想言葉変わる 言葉光呼
光影作 影人強
強優変わる 優出逢い呼
出逢い道作 道想刻
短針止 長針止
同痛分合事 喜変わる
誰一人一一瞬一秒一度 巻き戻せない時
生 出逢い探
一人 一 一瞬 一秒 一度
出逢え
My mum’s unconscious intelligence January 5, 2009
when i saw how my mum made something used to be not in use to become usable
i realized that i knew my mum is indeed a great designer
she prefers to ‘manufacture’ tools to cater to her own needs
which perhaps u may find u have seen that in some DIY TV programmes
of coz including the household stuffs
containers made by plastic drink bottles
wall-hanging bags made by excess shopping bags(with a little pocket for putting her pen~.~)
any endless additional details to make her belongings ‘mum-like’ according to her needs
i used to think all mums could do so
i didnt appreciate it
think i underestimated the potential strengths of my mum-.-
I finally understand why she sometimes like depreciating ppl’s efforts upon their brilliant resume
because their ‘accomplishments’ are kinda like her ‘inborn’ abilities
1. environmental friendly(she likes use unused stuffs)no matter how hard we learn about the environment in theory u can never compare her environmentally friendly actions!
creative(she makes things that no one makes) which usually any good designs will not be recognized unless they are famous
productive(she makes things within 30mins) people nowadays tranfer thier designs to be produced by others which lengthens the time spent
tangible(she makes only useful things)needless to say there’re always something look useful but indeed unnecessary(like most of japanese stuffs-.-e.g.banana hanger)
highly cost-sensitive(only her time and techniques are spent)
she is far more competitive than me in this sense-.-
get to let her skills be recognized!
p.s.hey mervin dun tease about my Japanese-.-i didnt mean to show i am good at japanese…..indeed there’s still a long way to go!!and let’s work hard together^^
アケオメ！！！ January 4, 2009
school again
5 more months to go
what will be next?
これから次々の決まりなんて
慎重にするように
就職する前
やりたいことをやりとく
新年の望み：
1.日本語力は下がらないように（やばいから）
2.むしろできればあげたい（先生に相談しないと）どうすればいいの？
3.アルバイトをする（キャリアのため）正社員になったらもうできなくなるかも
4.就職活動をする （やりたくないけど～。～）
5.旅する （遊ばないと！）
6.日本語教師（派遣）になるために自分的の教材を作る （私の夢だ）
7.痩せる（今月は体重1.5キローを脱ぎ）一番重要！！
8.家庭教師として学生に自分自身で英語をうまく勉強できるようにやっていく （高い給料を堂々にもらえるために）
9.先生に丁寧に教えていただく（個性的にしすぎたから）
10.健康に生きていく （お母さんがそばにいるから心配はないけど：ｐ）
11.運動をする （肌がきれいになるから＾＾）
あんまり多くてー。－朝までも書き切れないくらい。
